I felt like someone on the outside
looking at myself through a lens,
I looked white
and curly...
sad,
and needy.
People gravitated toward it,
toward me,
my scent of longing.
I wanted to give something,
something to take me away for awhile,
to let me feel human.
Just for one night...
He was a nice guy,
a friend of a friend, thrown at me
in obvious ways.
He would have been good enough,
to forget.
But I couldn't use him,
not even just once.
Instead,
I took a bath,
and dreamt of fish.
-kyuuri
