My Hands are Tied

It has been almost two years since I've been able to practice D/s in any real shape or form.

I have tried...believe me...but it's not something I can just metamorphosis's at my every whim.

In fact, the more I try to bring it to me, the further away it seems to be.

I don't know how to do it half way.

For me...D/s has to be all of the way - or none at all.

I want to live it, 24/7, no matter what the situation.

But I can't.

My hands are tied.